Under A Pale Grey Sky, We Shall Arise

Nicholas. 18. North Carolina, USA. Jesus First. Drug/Alcohol Free. I try to live a free flowing life style with a free spirit. Blog consists of whatever I want it to be.

So long to me being the only person who has always been there for you for 6 years.

So sick of people who claim to be my “best friend” but doesn’t act like it.

So sick of being the one who ACTUALLY starts conversations. If it wasn’t for me, we would have never ever talked at school.

So sick of initiating the hangout and you not coming through.

So sick of you hanging out with other people when you are finally free and then complaining to me that we didn’t hang out.

So sick of you ignoring me.

So sick of you calling me your best friend but act like I am your worst enemy. Your damn assumptions are what has killed us. You think you are the victim and everyone is out to hurt you. Open your freaking eyes. You kicked me out of your house the other day because you ASSUMED I was trying to insult your family by asking a couple damn questions. And then after your apology (that I appreciated A LOT) you assumed my freaking smiley face and peace sign were “sarcastic” because you always assume I am trying to hurt you.

I can trust a whole lot of people in this state, but you aren’t one of them. No one can predict how you are going to act.

**SORRY FOLLOWERS WHO DONT CARE ABOUT MY PERSONAL DRAMA. I HAVE A PERSON WHO CALLS ME HER BEST FRIEND THAT ACTS LIKE AN ENEMEY AND LIKES TO POST IT ALL OVER TUMBLR, SO I AM FOLLOWING HER LEAD**

WOW

Whatever. You always think you are the big victim in everything. You always think you haven’t done anything wrong. You always think you don’t need to apologize. And apparently now you think that it makes more sense to be silent than simply apologize for the way you acted. Well I hope your decision makes you happy and I hope you feel good about yourself. You really have changed and you are showing your true colors.

It’s weird. Even though I’m ALWAYS out doing something or attending some social event and surrounding myself with people/friends, I still feel lonely sometimes. I don’t know. I guess I am looking for something new to enter into my life.

I’m never ever ever home anymore… I leave in the morning and don’t come back until like 12:30. Is that healthy?